i have no idea what this title should be.

Just some interesting topics I've been thinking about...

- Introspection
      I've been talking to a good friend of mine about life in general, and one thing stuck out to me: that I think too much. I internalize situations and events so much that in reality, I get nowhere. Life really doesn't require too much thinking: it's mostly about the experiences and emotions. Thinking only gets you success - critical thinking at best. But generally thinking about everything and every thought you have had gets you absolutely nowhere. I've also found that music is a really good way to close yourself off from the world and entrance you in the thinking stage. Music is very good and appropriate in certain situations but most of the time, it closes you off, it makes you think. For me, thinking gets me usually depressed and thus if you connect it logically, music -> thinking -> depression. I think I get depressed because I think about myself too much. Even in conversation, I'm the one usually thinking how I can reply to stuff, not what other people are thinking about. In that aspect, I'm a egotistical bastard but hey, isn't everyone? Thus, I resolve to listen to what other people say and converse. There is a big difference between conversing and responding.

- Happiness
     One crucial thing I experienced was that when I'm not happy, I'm point all the bad things that has happened to me. I like to take responsibility for a lot of things, but to grow in life, that's not necessary. Life is about self-growth after all (But interestingly, half of the self-growth is about other people, in caring, helping, listening and loving other people). I can only reach happiness when I don't compare myself to other people. There's no need and there's no benefit to it. So, why do I do it? Why do I compare my assets to that of other people as if assets were grades? Oh I'm pretty good at throwing the frisbee but that guy has this crazy wind-up. Even social aspects like conversing, I sometimes compare myself to other people. Wow, that guy has a really smooth mouth and way of talking. This may sound stupid, but I'm pretty sure everyone's done that before. Comparison gets you nowhere. Believe in oneself is the only thing that will lead to self-confidence, growth, and success anywhere.
      In relation to this topic is the matter of opinions. Previously, I always held down my own opinions because I thought they weren't valid. I was wrong. Expressing opinions is probably the only thing that makes each of us unique. All we say are opinions. So withholding what I have is detrimental, almost. Expressing opinions isn't bad - putting down other's opinions as of less worth or even less "valid" is what's terrible.

I have just read over what I've written and I made almost 0 sense. Almost. Some things are better experienced than said